Wednesday, February 4, 2009

frustration

i think i need to add a disclaimer....baby libby is right where she should be. it's me being impatient and unrealistically hopeful that i'll go in and the doctor will tell me to go straight to the hospital. i'm just getting sick of being pregnant and ready to meet her already!


i give up. i think i'm just gonna say they pushed my due date out to april and that i'm now going to have a 15lb baby (there really is a guy that plays some sport who really was born at 15lbs! true story! i saw him on sportscenter!) but anyway, thinking this won't happen until april will make me feel better when she finally comes.

these appointments are frustrating, though. i went in this morning severely light headed and with some cramping--the cramping is positive! however, i've got nothing. still NO PROGRESS. she checked my cervix again, and i'm 75% effaced, but not dilated one bit--hence why i have now pushed my due date to april! (haha) here's more bad news--this whole time she's been telling me i'm going to have a little baby. and i was glad! i have no stretch marks and i was looking forward to having none week 40. today, though, little libby has grown a TON! less than 2 weeks ago she was 4lbs 13 oz. today, 6lbs 2 oz. so now she's on track to be 8lbs+. what the heck is happening to me! she's growing at lightning fast speed (my opinion) yet she's still so clammed up and has no intention of coming out any time soon. PRAY FOR ME! i think i'm going to lose my mind.

another thing--i've been really thinking about natural child birth versus meds. i would say i was 85% leaning toward natural...until today. when the doc was checking my cervix, she decided to "massage my cervix" a little bit. i believe her exact words were "give you a little dose of what contractions feel like"....um, i needed an epidural for this 'massage'. it was so stinking painful i thought i was going to cry. i'm not kidding. and i thought i was tough! she must've caught me on a bad day. but i was so caught off guard by the pain that i forgot to ask if the baby had flipped, and all my million other questions. all i could think about was when the pain was going to stop.

on to stats--she's up to the 53rd percentile--oh, do i miss when she was at 24! her head has slowed down significantly and her arms & legs are now within a few days of her head. i really wanted to go until my due date and let her come on her own...but tonight, i think drew and i will have a conversation about a week 39 induction. :)

other than that, not a lot going on. i've been trying to keep busy cleaning and organizing. i can't stand to sit still for very long when i'm home--our couches are so soft that they make my back ACHE after 5 minutes. so lately, i've been sitting on the couch/chair in the entry way (they're firm) and watching tv from there--that's how drew and i watched part of the super bowl. ridiculous. but it works! by the way...YEAH STEELERS!

i go back to the doc next friday...hopefully i'll have good news to report. i'm going to heat up my pizza and eat lunch! pepperonis are spicy, right? :)

2 comments:

Erin said...

Keep an open-mind about natural childbirth. I made it to a comfortable seven cm dilated before getting my epidural with Andrew. All I was feeling was really bad cramps in my back, and I was on a pretty high level of pitocin. However, do not try to be a hero and deny an epidural if you want one - I did not want to go natural and I'm so glad I had an epidural! Hang in there! She's getting lots of important nutrients right now. God knows her birthday, and she'll come right on time. :)

texasholls said...

Glad baby Libby is growing but hope she comes before she gets to the 8lb. mark! Sounds to me like you doctor is trying subtle tactics to get you to deliver her way rather than the way you want to do it. That is my cynical comment from my recent experiences with the medical field. Hopefully there's lots more progress next time you go in.